== moral stressed out night.

NABEIIIII i wonder why am i still blogging here at 2am. WTF
currently memorizing moral and my head is about to burst. WTF. i hate it...
especially when u know u can score, but your body aint making any progress...
==
wtf. fuck ya moral. who fuckin cares about moral? i just need my fuckin A.

15 October

=]

HEY

HEYYY... i just realised september ended.
why didn't anyone wake up me?
remember? i said to wake me up when september ends.

blog's been dead for quite a while...
had nothing to update. ==
everything is as usual.
ups and downs.
highs and lows.
yea...
over and over and over again...
gotta find my own way...

haha... no offence okay?

something that i wanna share...
quite true i guess...
hey, it was on YAHOO!'s main page kay?
anyway, go read THIS.
no offence okay?

love baby celyn =)

2009 CHCHS Graduation Theme Song

Military Band / Chinese Orchestra? huh?

suddenly saw this...
looking back at this...

we suck. =S






im now officially CHCHSCO.
hahahaha.
peace =]

you wanna know why?

tried to wake up as early as possible today...
slept at 4 last night O.O lol

alarm rang. cant wake up -.-
Do you ever feel like breakin' down,
do you ever feel out of place...
...
...
and phone rang (welcome to my life set as my message alert tone so that i can wake up if u msg me)

dang. 7am. SUNRISE! msg from tsu huey "thanks!", wished her happy birthday last night.
oh no... 7AM
eyes half closed...

DIE ALSO MUST SEND A MSG.

ti ta ti ta ti ta...
send...
message delivered.

pong... slept again -.-

Do you ever feel like breakin' down,
do you ever feel out of place...
...
...
and phone rang (welcome to my life set as my message alert tone)

sian ah...
wan sleep...
aiya... nvm...
10am.
im so late again.
there goes my promise, vanished into thin air again...

oo... kena scold pula...
ma si sleep back...

sms...
sms...
easy to get bluff...
no care me...
=S

wahhh.... so fast 11am.

drive car... oishey...
-.-
wan say no pun cant.
already drive liao...
wahh...
police ask u move...
amazing...
sleepy also become awake d.
got think of me?
no ba...
if got u wont drive d...
aiya...
u think i so cha meh...
just near near nia ma...
err... ok lo.

12noon... hungry... =S
hmmm...
kfc?
aiya...
i think she forget liao...
nvm la...
tesco...
hmm
really forget d meh...
aiya... suak la... delivery la...

hmmm... mum ask u go inside house...
she dun like we talk at playground...
si bo?
or dun like i go?
well... its your mum...
i dunno...
my fault...
u only think of yourself...
sure everything ok la...
everything can no need just for me...

"your lunch how?"
...
...
thought u forget d...
2pm ka ask -.-
luckily i ma bo eat?
if i eat d, i say i no go find u and go kfc with u, u will how?
...
sad lo... down lo...
ask u come got so hard ma?
just wanna see you...
oo... flash back...

u WAITING ME COME NIA. >.<
aiya... aiya... sorry lo...
go correct d...

bathe... la la la...

where are you? somewhere.
where are you? u cant wait is it?
haha. =P funny...
reach d....
"can come down now? freakin hungry"

see, he dun wan bother me...
oh.
=[
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=[
=[

so hot...
oh...
u wan come de...
cin cai lo...

still keep scold him...
i dunno why...
-.- just tahan?
scold ppl very syok?
even not scold me...
i pun bo syok...

then =[...
u weird today...
oh.
come lets go back...
dun wan~~~

kfc... wah song... cold cold...
wan eat hami... dunno..
wan eat hami... mai liao...
drink pepsi full? yes.
oh. good =S
eat my burger.

sleepy... @.@
u go home lah, i walk home myself with him can d.
oh... gao...
if really like that...
后果不堪设想
know my chinese cha...

wah, steam ah, walk pun almost fall down...
come in my house? no.
again... my fault...
not my mum, i dunno...
she dont care~~~ oh, dun care then say so much?
maybe u know ba?
but u just think for yourself...
or... not my mum, i dunno...
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he dun wan go in then dun force him laaa...
later argue again liao...
=[
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=[

sorry, i know i did something wrong force u come into my house...
=S
u din see i from starting diok aneh d?
so when i steam and dun feel like talking means i weird?
then when u =[ leh?
u =[ can i =[ cannot ah?
dun cai me d...
no care me d...
oh...


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errr...
i dunno liao...
i think i die better...

O.O

watch it... hahaha... so dumb...

long since i last update my blog...
busy with trails?
haha... i dun know...
more of laziness i guess...

nothing much to say again...
having holidays now...

had a kinda cool farewell on tuesday...
errr.......
what now...

so lost again...
future?
idk...

la la la...


love my babylyn.

victim too... =(

没有警告的警告，大家评评理，这有天理吗？2009-09
我是一名中五的学生，就读槟城青草巷某中学。我校为了减少纪律问题，同样的实行了扣分制度，只不过我们是以格子来计算，每位学生共有六十个。在我学校里，有自己的一套管理头发的方式。这是今年才实行的。学生每个月的月头，都必须剪至少三号军头，而纪律老师也会在这时候来检查头发。没有剪头发的学生，第一次被抓到的学生将会被警告。第二次也一样。要等到第三次的时候，若依然顽固，不剪头发，才会被扣二十格。这是我们的副校长在周会上亲口说的。

然而事实却非如此。九月三日早上，纪律老师（女的，姓郑的）来查头发，这是她这个月第一次来查。结果许多没有剪头发的学生都被抓了（包括我），并扣了二十格。她的说法是，她九月一日没有来查头发已经算是给了我们第一次警告了，因此，这已经算是第二次了。

我知道没有剪头发的确是自己不对，但明明说好有机会的，结果却变成这样。而且她的说法也很牵强，甚至很可笑。我们的副校长也没有这么说过。另外，我要强调九月一号时我们也不知道有什么警告。身为一位教育工作者，她甚至搞不清“警告”的涵义。所谓警告就是要人家知道才算警告，我们根本就没有收到任何的警告，这叫我们学生如何能服？

我们就要毕业了。读了中学五年，一向循规蹈矩，不吸烟，不打架，不逃学，却因为没有剪头发被记了大过，造成人生的污点。逃学去网咖才扣七格，那我不然逃学不是更值得？

我们只是学生，没有能力，只能任人宰割，但很冤枉



haha... cool... apparently, im one of the SO CALLED VICTIM TOO...
and...
i don't give a damn bout those freakin lines...
like i fuckin care?
=]

imagine telling people, hey! i got kicked outa school for not cutting my hair.
that person would probably reply, "what school you from?"
HEY, IM FROM CHCHS~
nice school man.
=]
ftw.

tbh, whoever who wrote thing and send it via email to everybody, i'd advice you to save it, neither it will bring you any good, nor bring any of us any good.

ultra freakin noob sorta stuff...
hair
school
LINES
email
oh shut up...

Happy 2 Months, Baby

like... huh?

wow... endured through 8 days of excruciating pain...
haha...
believe me, it was like HELL.
had nothing to do... decided to blog...
don't really feel like studying...
studying sucks...
Fuck Studying.
Fuck EXAMS.
Fuck SPM!

grrr...
well, had Addmaths and English paper today...
Addmaths, oh no =(
English Essay, oh yes =)

essays are fun.
and there i go again...
writing sad, emotional stories...
don't know why, i just feel that sad stories bring a more dramatic effect, then after reading it, there's this feeling... easier to elaborate on to...
haha...
sad essays, happy marks...

god damn it i hate studying...
everytime i think of it, just feels like its drowning me from the inside out.
uugghh...

well, about life...
life just gets interesting...
as time passes, things change...
i just wonder what the future might be?
still me, jumpin around?
im hoping for the best,
but preparing for the worse.
i guess thats life...
=S

Belaian Jiwa

Wak3 m3 uP wh3n S3PT3MB3R ENDS

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends

Insane psycho Freak

look at the height he jumped. =S



well... just finished another day of exams...
idiotic...
hateExam4Lyfe =]

8 weeks =]

la la la...
happy 8 weeks my baby baby celyn...

Ishhh...

finished like 4 days of exams...
exhausted... phew...

wish me luck =]

WelcomE to My LyFe

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Circle Of Lyfe

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
There's more to be seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done

Some say eat or be eaten
Some say live and let live
But all are agreed as they join the stampede
You should never take more than you give

(Chorus)
In the Circle of Life
It's the wheel of fortune
It's the leap of faith
It's the band of hope
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle, the Circle of Life

Some of us fall by the wayside
And some of us soar to the stars
And some of us sail through our troubles
And some have to live with the scars

There's far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high
Through the sapphire sky
Keeps the great and small on the endless round

(Chorus repeats)

On the path unwinding
In the Circle, the Circle of Life.

SUDDENLY...

i felt like saying...











































































i love you, Celyn Teoh Wei Ying
=D

2 days down... =]

oo... 2nd day of trials...
about yesterday...
moral still okay... i guess...
thats what i always think...
but the results come out...
ma aneh nia... =S
bm...
essay... damn -.-
no points... haha
"Kebanyakan Penyakit Berpunca Daripada Amalan Pemakan"
bahaskan pernyataan tersebut.
anyone to interested to give me some examples?
or points? lol =]

afternoon...
went back home...
slept like a pig...
lol =P
about 4 to 8...
then continued to study late at night...
well...
at least im suppose to...
but yea...
u know me...
ended up sleeping at 3+am...
what did i study?
i studied you...
=D

today...
went to school...
eyes half closed...
haha...
brain half shut down-ed...
decided to take the last 30mins before my sejarah test paper, to somehow memorize some stuff...
yeah i did...
but once i took the paper...
hooray...



i forgotten almost all of it. =)
yeah... whatever...
took my time... and finish the paper in about 1 and a half hour...
then suddenly...
考试还睡觉？
要考SPM了你们知道吗？
amazing... my discipline teacher walked in...
then she checked our hair...
with the excuse of...
本来不打算吵你们的...
但是我看到你们睡到这样爽...
就查你们的头发来刺激你们咯...
hello???
lame excuse...
and of course...
i am one of the VICTIM.
lol =P

then went for recess...
2nd paper of the day is english...
yay...
fav sub...
=)
anyway, this times paper at least i feel a little difficulty in it...
compared to the past papers...
haha...
thats probably my day at school...

anyway... on the way up to my house...
i saw this on my condo's notice board...
even my condo now has a blog...
amazing... O.O

damn. ?

1.43am...
huh????
1st, im late...
late to wish my baby
happy 7 weeks anniversary.
all thanks to digi...
im so gonna fuck that yellow man.
damn.
happy now?
then digi will just send a message...
saying how sorry they are...
sorry for some shit inconvenience caused.
oh well...
i dont need you damn freaking msg...
give me free talk time credit. =D
everyone agree???
like RM3 talk time is good enough.
fuck digi.
after that, i'll skin you ALIVE.

yep, that'll be correct. bye bye~

2nd, hey!!! what the fuck are u doing at 2am? shouldnt you be in bed? or at least studying???
yeah, whatever.
im having my 1st paper in like approx. 6 hours from now.
moral.
sick of memorizing.
it sucks.
takes up your brain space... and make you go nuts...
had instant noodles for supper and watch CSI:NY lol.
=]
im enjoying my life...

HEY HELLO~~~
TRIALS EXAM STARTING IN 6HOURS???

Zzzz... whatever!
just let me finish my blog first...
pleeeeaaaaaaaassssssssseeeeeeeeeee???
=]
smiley face from me.


kk... so... what happened in school today...
like half the class was absent...
leaving a few noobs in class doing nothing...
teacher wasnt teaching...
students wasnt listening...
amazing...
talked for the first few periods...
then close to recess...
i felt tired and rest my head on my desk...
and so did my friend...
and dozed off...
-.-
waking up know that the class was already empty...
NOBODY woke us up...
HEY... whats that suppose to mean?

well... after recess... i slept for about 2 hours???
but kept waking up as im getting [numb attacks]
arrr...
i just wish my bed was there...
then everything will be just PERFECT.

oh shit.
i cant concentrate...
im having exams...
damn?
what am i doing?
NO i dont wanna screw this up.

Hmmm...
=S
>.<
=]
HAHA...

anyway,
HAPPY 7 WEEKS ANNIVERSARY, BABY =]

my baby

hey baby,
i kinda like this picture of you...
my little hawt-ieee...
long, perm-ed hair... not bad at all... =D

stresed~ heart attack!!!

11.22pm. like 8hours till school starts again. what the fuck im doing? im staring at the pc...
aimless...
suffering for heart attack.
im scared.
of everything...
trials?
im so not prepared...
to think of screwing up my career?
i dont know...
what i've done?
so confusing...
so aimless...
so... zombiefied...
clueless...
to make matters worse, school starts in... damn? 7.45 mins or something...
i'll die...
no idea what im doing...
still under a little shock...
i gotta concentrate...
i know i can...
for gods sake...
for YOUR sake...
come on come on!!!



i dont wanna go... school?
shit.
im so damn fucked up.



i have no idea what to say to you...
i know its quite useless cuz whats done is done...
not pushing away my responsibility...
its just sorta unexpected...
i need time...
im sorry.
i love you...
i'll keep my promise...
i know i will...
i'll make sure i do...
as long as one day im alive...
i'll be loving you...
i know its you...
i just know...
im sorry...

Sunday to Monday

woke up rather late today... slept at 3+ last night i think... watched this taiwan drama thing on youtube... [櫻野3加1]... damn? since when i became a so movie person... well.. its quite a nice show.. got me hooked for quite a while... dun ask me how...
so...
i woke up, had chicken rice for lunch...
well.. why am i blogging bout this anyway... haha...
whatever... have nohing else to blog... in order to keep this blog alive, this is necessary... =]
was practically alone for the whole afternoon at home...
with my phone and my computer to keep me accompany...

holidays is over soon...
in another approx 23hours from the time i post this blog, it'll be end of this 1 week & 1 day holiday... and... approx 80 hours from now... i'll be having my trials...
great...
FAQ...
are you prepared for your SPM?
no.
are you prepared for your trial exams?
obviously not.
did you study during this holidays?
i did. i really did. just... =]
will you flunk your exams?
yeah. probably, i guess. based on... now.
errr... many goodlucks to me...
haha... =D im cool right? dun have to study and expect everything to turn out fine.
apparently, it appears to be killing me softly...
soon, i'll be dead...
over confident?
i don't know...
its just the feeling for studying isnt there...
i'd prefer playing my sax for life than studying...
but?
yeah... i dont have to say anything, you guys understand...

sometimes, i look at myself... and wonder if i am really the guy i look...
well, i can tell you... the answer is
NO.
im like hmmm... and egg...
although hard on the outside, and soft in the inside, it'll still break if you hit it too hard... and if you heat it up, the inside will get hard too... but it'll still break under pressure...

sometimes i feel, if i have given you enough?
its not anything...
but, its just that, you expect too high on me, and im afraid i can't meet your demands, you get that? im not calling you to dun expect from me... but... i don't know... i feel so helpless, so desperate... i wanna give you everything... but i cant... i love you... i really do... probabaly not the best guy in the world... but at least i'll try? maybe im watching too much of that [櫻野3加1] shit... ugghhh whatever... i don't know... a little lost, but i'll be fine... only you'll make me go crazy like this... but also if i wanna be normal, i need you...
just wanna tell you that, you lighten up my life... i cant imagine life without you now... i've been through those, and i dun wanna repeat them... i know im not perfect, i know you're not perfect too... but i know you'll try to be the perfect one to me... and of course, i will too... i need you to believe in me... but im afraid that no matter how hard i try, i still wont make it...
but i won't lose hope in myself, i hope you dont too...
you're just the one...
i wont give you up... i want you to stay strong for yourself too...

Essay on MY LAMP
you're the lamp in my life... without this light, i will be in total darkness... who knows what will happen inside a life of total darkness? so, i'll try very very hard to keep this lamp lit, so i can shine my way through out... i know sometimes, when the wind is strong, you'll go blinking, but i'll make sure this light of mine doesnt extinguish... beside light, you also give me warmth... when im cold, you'll heat me up... but sometimes during the winter, even lamps freeze... but i'll make sure i cover you will lots of blanket, and stay with you, until winter is over, then you can continue to light up and lead my way again... on the other hand, during summer, things get a little heated up... until sometimes unbearable... but of course, i'll find a way to cool you down without having to extinguish that flame inside...

oh great. i haven cut my hair. =S

PS: i love you, Celyn Teoh Wei Ying.

day...

hmm... woke up by a phone call today. a friend called, saying digi died... (of cuz it died, i fucked the yellow man till his guts came out yesterday) lol... yea... had problems with digi yesterday... and bingo, today morning, it crashed... the WHOLE digi line crashed, no calls, no messages... great.
it was raining like crazy... and i mean, LIKE CRAZY...
it was as if the rain drops would just pierce through your body if u were to stand outside... SO BIG DROPS...errr..
hungry... wanted to had some delivery stuff... but... raining... and im broke...
so... cooked 2 packets of instant noodles...
thats what i had for lunch. yay
and... finally got a replacement for my modem...
actually, not exactly a replacement, mum applied for a new package...



picture of my new 2 in 1 wireless modem...
nice lights =]

then... sorta studied... i mean.... 1 question, 10 minutes tv + 10 minutes pc + 10 minutes dreaming that type...
hey, at least i studied kay?
manage to do like 30 objective questions in errr... 5 hours?
amazing huh?
thats me.
get use to it or get LOST =]
lol
so... yea... spend my afternoon that way...
nothing much REALLY happened...
means nothing to blog...
means sad case...
actually its not that i have nothing to blog, its just that now, i have somebody to share my stories with... don't really feel like blogging it anymore... hmmm
well, this posts is on special request...
haha...

=)

oo... its has been like what? a week since i last updated??? haha. amazing. UNFORTUNATELY, internet crashed again. and there the DSL light goes blinking again... on and on like there's no tomorrow...
oh well... out of luck, it suddenly worked today...
unbelievable... but thats what happened.
hmm... well... what happened between the past week...
oh yea... friday, i accidentally cracked my laptop screen, dont ask how... so... called dell for a replacement. cost RM850 for a upgraded warrantly for 1 year, which of cause include the screen replacement that would cost RM700+... so, figured that its more worth it with a 1 year warranty...
well, during the repair, the guy said im having something problem with my harddisk as well, some error shit. so... he got a replacement too, and he's comin over tmr?
so... yea... unlucky me huh?
holidays started, what was i suppose to do? study right?
but... haha. i didn't at all... hmmm... gosh.. whatever...
went to see a chinese orchestra concert on sunday... had to support my baby... =] although im not a big fan of chinese orch, but its not bad... haha...

so... what else to blog about???
its all bout life...
gosh...
chaotic life...
boring...
hmmm........
...
...
...
ღ Celyn
6 weeks of you...

oh well...

hmmm... firstly... i'd like to rant bout my internet...
freakin TMnet... yea...

Experiment 1

PROBLEM STATEMENT:
does TMnet really sucks?

HYPOTHESIS:
When the DSL light is blinking like there's no tomorrow, you cant connect to the damn fuckin internet.

APPARATUS & MATERIALS:
AZTECH DSL modem, AZTECH wireless modem, Dell laptop with wifi, cables, and of cuz electricity.

PROCEDURE:
1. connect all cables to the modems and turn the power on.
2. switch on your laptop and try to connect to the internet.
3. steps 1 & 2 are repeated throughout these few days.
4. the results and observations were recorded on this blog.

RESULTS & OBSERVATIONS:
DAY 1
modem DSL light blinking like there's fuckin no tommorow.
connection to internet failed.
Light got stable at night. finally got my internet connection.
DAY 2
DSL light blinked like fuck. as if somebody's fuckin its holes with shit.
DAY 3
PISSED. DSL light still blinking although i never offed the modem for 24 hours.
DAY 4
slammed the modem on the floor and it broke. haha just kidding...
its still not working...

CONCLUSION:
TMNET SUCKS. TELECOM SUCKS. MALAYSIA SUCKS.

PRECAUTION:
do not support malaysian product.


yeah, damn right... internet was down for bout few days ago... well... last post till now, do the math.
finally the DSL light got stable and im so not gonna off the modem...
called TM for troubleshooting, but doesnt really help...

so... sunday stonned at home... internet-less
same goes for monday...
and tuesday...

make things even worse, my bathroom hot water heater...
ouch...
lol...
sorta short circuit-ed
everytime i on it...
the electricity would trip...

no hotwater to bathe, no internet for entertainment...
almost went crazy....
fortunately, i got you.....

meanwhile... internet-less... i started to think bout life...
why is this world so unfair?
why do we have to face problems?
looking at friends beside me...
family beside me...
nothing really seems right...
weird...
as i said... as i get older, i start to deteriorate... but i start to discover new things bout life... the life which is not what i had few years back...
oh well... i sure knew one thing... everything in the world is balanced...
for example, as the population of the world is going up caused by too much sex, guys fuckin girls and get them pregnant...
and lots of babies coming to this world to suffer with us...
this freaking disease thinggie also comes with it...
H1N1...
see? its created to lower the worlds population...
the earth is dying, cant people see that???
we're using the earth's resource like drinking water from the river...
talking bout that...
i believe after 100years, the world would be dried up... drought all over... heatwaves killing more lives...
NOT INNOCENT LIFES, everyone in the world is GUILTY...
well, back to the point...
newton's law, IN EVERYTHING ACTION, THERE WILL BE AN EQUAL AND OPPOSITE REACTION.
agree?

so... even tho my life sorta sucks... im blessed with a damn sweet girlfriend...
blessed with a healthy body, no influenza A... and ect...
WELL, seriously, u cant prevent the disease from attack you, its all up to fate...
if you're meant to get it, how careful u are, you'll still get one lahhhhh...
so, i'll leave this all to god...
man make man destory?
nahh, god make, god destory...
god, the true ruler of the universe...

(:

wow...
time really flies...
in a blink of an eye...
it has already been 1 month...
a month since we got together...
a month of happiness...
a month of never ending enjoyment...
still can't believe that i would end up with her...
its not like we KNOW each other well...
but... sometimes... its the SPARK.
sorry lo... i cant help it ma...
she so sweet.......
electroCUTED...
haha. XD
straight right through the eyes...
oops...

to celebrate this memorable moment...
we decided to go on our first date at queensbay...
=P
walked...
talked...
played..
laughed...
eat...
=]
oh yea...
read books too!
hahaha

eh... this is good bonding kay???

=]

anyway...
happy 1 month~~~



Sara Teasdale

I Love You


When April bends above me
And finds me fast asleep
Dust need not keep the secret
A live heart died to keep.

When April tells the thrushes,
The meadow-larks will know,
And pipe the three words lightly
To all the winds that blow.

Above his roof the swallows,
In notes like far-blown rain,
Will tell the little sparrow
Beside his window-pane.

O sparrow, little sparrow,
When I am fast asleep,
Then tell my love the secret
That I have died to keep.




remember the 10,000 ways to say i love you?

haha....
poems~~~ hehehehe....

SONGS~
If I Never Knew You by Jon Secada & Shanice

If I never knew you
If i never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me.

In this world so full of fear
Full of rage and lies
I can see the truth so clear
In your eyes
So dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd hve lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true

I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong
all they'd leave us were these wispers in the night
But still my heart is saying we were right

Oh if I never knew you
There's no moment I regret
If i never felt this love
Since the moment that we met
I would have no inkling of
If our time has gone too fast
How precious life can be...
I've lived at last...

I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I thought our love wuold be so beautiful
We'd turn the darkness into light
And still my heart is saying we were right
we were right

And if I never knew you
If I never knew you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you



i love you, happy 1 month...

=]

HAPPY 4 WEEKS, BABE~
I LOVE YOU

Ooo...

long time didnt blog...
what should i blog about??
well... went to see PWO's concert on friday...
quite amazing...
i wanna join...
but i dun have instrument...
sad...

well, my grand aunt passed away...
went to attend her funeral today...
interesting one...
haha...



well, funny vid to share...



babe, still like elephants???








eyes on you... :)

need my life back... pleeeeaaaaaaaaasssseeeeeee...

damn...
1 of the past days...
i was listening to songs on my playlist in my phone.
it was played under shuffle.
and...
skipped to...
the song i played on my concert, the LIVE recorded one...
and it reminded me of those memories...
those were the days,
band-ing from like morning till night...
time i spend with the people...
bonding...
thinking of how much i'd miss the band after i graduate...
and then i start thinking bout graduation...
imagine life without school...
without rules...
wonder if there's still friends...
maybe we'd just lost contact...
nobody knows...
read a friend of mine's blog...
he graduated last year...
he missed penang alot...
currently studying outstation...
wonder if i'll be like that too?
i miss the band...
i miss my saxophone...
seriously...
everytime i think bout that, it just kills of the mood...
thinking of graduation is crazy...
life after that is even worse
imagine...
scaryy.......
hmmmm....
to make things even worse...
trial's coming soon.
im not even 1% prepared...
SPM in approx 100days...
what will i become when i grow up?
no, i don't wanna become a millionair...
nor billionair...
all i want is to live a happy, fulfilling life...
peace and joy...
get a proper job enough to feed myself, and my family, including the needs.
makes you go nuts when u think bout it...

went to queensbay again just now...
with my mum & dad...
first time in 10years i think...
wanted to have dinner...
walked down the escalator...
1 turned left, 1 turned right...
wtf...
i stood there... and hang...
then 1 looked at the shop on the left, another on the right...
come on!
what'd you expect me to do?
so... i just said, lets go there...
and i walked...

i need my life back...
can i stop worrying bout these stuff?
causes major life threatening sickness. lol

another thing...
i freaking need to learn music...
at least 1 instrument...
guitar?
piano?
SAXOPHONE perhaps?

sighs...
wonder if my dream would come true?

awww... why???

come on! why does she have to be so sweet?



An unbreakable promises between Win-and-Lyn




HanYi,dont forget what you had promised me kay?

Something happened yesterday between me and him again.
I knew im not a good girlfriend.
I really scared he will leave me one day.
Maybe i love him too much?

Althought he doesn't looks handsome.
and sometimes he keep say he's ugly.
But for me,he is handsome.
Dont ask me why,cause i ♥ him.

Cousie said im changed alot.
I didnt feel that at all.
Or maybe i really changed?
Dont ask why,cause i ♥ him.

I feel my life has changed after i met him.
Become more meaningful?
Wait him find me at school.
Wait he text me after back from school.
Wait for his loves and cares,even bully.
Wait for his called.
Wait his goodnight kiss.

Every morning once i open my eyes,
'Morning babe.'
He purpose wake up and sent me
How sweet is he huh?
Come to my class' coridor talk to me even he's sleepy.
He said if he didnt find me,i'll kill him.winkssss.
Accompany me before im going to CO.
Let me bite his hand even fingers.
Play 'my heart will go on' with piano althought he's not well on it,

I dont know how far still we can go on.
Im not a good girlfriend.
I scare one day if he really cant tolerant me anymore.....
Ermmm, dont dare to think...


The-young-him...
Grabbed from somewhere...
Now he is sleeping.
Later only wake him up,let he sleep more.

Miss him so much.
I ♥ HIM



arrrr.....
i love her so much...
im lucky to have her...
im happy to have her...
you can't imagine how much i love her...

songs again...

you're my EVERYTHING and I'M YOURS.










oh yea.. something...
went to queensbay yesterday, and its..
WORLD BREASTFEEDING WEEK 2009.
what the hack do they do there?
mums go topless and start to let their babies suck their nipples in public?
weird thing...
damn. this world is really getting weird-er
errr??????
whatever.

whatever...



CELYN TEOH WEI YING, I LOVE YOU~

what more can i blog about?

geez...
what more i can blog about???
rained the whole day...

missed my girlfriend...
oh come on...
look at her...
how could u not miss her????



seee??????
get what i mean??????
you're so damn cute!!!!!
OMG~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


miss her so much...


well...
i cant drive...
im sick of waiting.....
seriously need driving licence.....
=( awww... thats freakin sad case...

sighs...
went for lunch, and dinner with relatives...
lots of good food today...
altho its kinda boring...

hrmmm...?

songs~~~!












hehehe... NO LYRICS FOR YOU, BABY...
wanna know the lyrics, listen to the song...
BLEKKKK

hm?

studying's getting more complicated..
school's getting more and more boring...
it sucks...

music as a career?
saxophone for life?

nah...
i wanna be a daddy and produce babies at home...
celyn for life...

=)



我的天空多么的清晰
透明的
全都是过去的空气
牵着我的手是你
拌你的笑容
却看不清
是否一颗星星变了心
从前的愿望
你全都给抛弃
最近我无法呼吸
连自己的影子
都想找你
oh baby
你就是我的唯一
两个世界都变形
回去谈和容易
确定你就是我的唯一
独自对着电话说我爱你
我真的爱你
baby我已不能爱你多一些
是否一颗星星变了心
从前的愿望
你全都给抛弃
最近我无法呼吸
连自己的影子
都想找你
oh baby
你就是我的唯一
两个世界都变形
回去谈和容易
确定你就是我的唯一
独自对着电话说我爱你
我真的爱你
baby
我已不能爱你多一些
其实早已超过了爱的界限
oh baby
你就是我的唯一
两个世界都变形
回去谈和容易
确定你就是我的唯一
独自对着电话说我爱你
我真的爱你
baby
我已不能爱你多一些

random stuffs...

went to school today...
walked pass the corridor...
but just didnt see the usual face...
haha...
maybe i just shouldnt hope too much...
do not expect the repay if you didnt give...
i should just give more huh...

sometimes, i just wonder...
if im really that inconceivable...
if i have the ability, to just...
express my emotions...
my thoughts...

or... just by my eyes...
look into my eyes...
what do you see???
can u see the reflection of yourself???

well, figured out a way...
songs...
music...
my life...
my passion...

unfortunately...
its still gonna end one day,
after secondary life, no more saxophone... no more music...
ouch...
gonna learn piano...
as i dont have long fingers for guitars...
-.-

sorta hate myself...
felt like i cant contribute to anything...
stone...

hmmmm...
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

Every Little Thing You Do, Westlife.




Hello, let me know if you hear me
Hello, if you want to be near
Let me know
And I'll never let you go

Hey love
When you ask what I feel, I say love
When you ask how I know
I say trust

And if that's not enough

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

Don't ask why
Let's just feel what we feel
'Cause sometimes
It's the secret that keeps it alive
But if you need a reason why

[Chorus]
Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do

It's everything, everything you do
That makes me fall in love with you
It's everything, everything you say
That makes me feel this way




Tarzan Soundtrack, You'll Be In My Heart, Phil Collins



Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always

Monday

after the RUBIK'S ERA,
imagine all the boys bring a barbie doll to school, and starts to compare them with other friends
combing their hair, talking to them, and feeding them food.

just imagine.





Ronan Keating, If Tomorrow Never Comes:

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and
lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them
never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance
to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

Story i'd like to share

Robby's Night
True Story Worth Reading !!!

At the prodding of my friends, I am writing this story. My name is Mildred Hondorf. I am a former elementary school music teacher from Des Moines , Iowa . I've always supplemented my income by teaching piano lessons-something I've done for over 30 years. Over the years I found that children have many levels of musical ability. I've never had the pleasure of having a prodigy though I have taught some talented students.

However, I've also had my share of what I call 'musically challenged' pupils. One such student was Robby. Robby was 11 years old when his mother (a single Mom) dropped him off for his first piano lesson. I prefer that students (especially boys!) begin at an earlier age, which I explained to Robby.

But Robby said that it had always been his mother's dream to hear him play the piano. So I took him as a student. Well, Robby began with his piano lessons and from the beginning I thought it was a hopeless endeavor. As much as Robby tried, he lacked the sense of tone and basic rhythm needed to excel but he dutifully reviewed his scales and some elementary pieces that I require all my students to learn.

Over the months he tried and tri ed while I listened and cringed and tried to encourage him. At the end of each weekly lesson he'd always say, 'My mom's going to hear me play someday.' But it seemed hopeless. He just did not have any inborn ability. I only knew his mother from a distance as she dropped Robby off or waited in her aged car to pick him up. She always waved and smiled but never stopped in.

Then one day Robby stopped coming to our lessons.

I thought about calling him but assumed because of his lack of ability, that he had decided to pursue sometng else. I also was glad that he stopped coming. He was a bad advertisement for my teaching!

Several weeks later I mailed to the student's homes a flyer on the upcoming recital. To my surprise Robby (who received a flyer) asked me if he could be in the recital. I told him that the recital was for current pupils and because he had dropped out he really did not qualify. He said that his mother had been sick and unable to take him to piano lessons but he was still practicing 'Miss Hondorf, I've just got to play!' he insisted.

I don't know what led me to allow him to play in the recital. Maybe it was his persistence or maybe it was something inside of me saying that it would be all right. The night for the recital came. The high school gymnasium was packed with parents, friends and relatives. I put Robby up last in the program before I was to come up and thank all the students and play20a finishing piece. I thought that any damage he would do would come at the end of the program and I could always salvage his poor performance through my 'curtain closer.'

Well, the recital went off without a hitch. The students had been practicing and it showed, then Robby came up on stage. His clothes were wrinkled and his hair looked like he'd run an eggbeater through it. 'Why didn't he dress up like the other students?' I thought. 'Why didn't his mother at least make him comb his hair for this special night?'

Robby pulled out the piano bench and he began. I was surprised when he announced that he had chosen Mozart's Concerto #2120 in C Major. I was not prepared for what I heard next. His fingers were light on the keys, they even danced nimbly on the ivories. He went from pianissimo to fortissimo. >From allegro to virtuoso. His suspended chords that Mozart demands were magnificent! Never had I heard Mozart played so well by people his age. After six and a half minutes he ended in a grand crescendo and everyone was on their feet in wild applause.

Overcome and in tears, I ran up on stage and put my arms around Robby in joy. 'I've never heard you play like that Robby! How'd you do it? '


Through the microphone Robby explained: 'Well, Miss Hondorf, remember I told you my Mom was sick? Well, actually she had cancer and passed a way this morning and well. .. She was born deaf so tonight was the first time she ever heard me play. I wanted to make it special.'

There wasn't a dry eye in the house that evening. As the people from Social Services led Robby from the stage to be placed into foster care, I noticed that even their eyes were red and puffy and I thought to myself how much richer my life had been for taking Robby as my pupil.

No, I've never had a prodigy but that night I became a prodigy . .. Of Robby's. He was the teacher and I was the pupil for it is he that taught me the meaning of perseverance and love and believing in yourself and maybe even taking a chance in someone and you don't know why.

Robby was killed in the senseless bombing of the Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building inOklahoma City in April of 1995. And now, a footnote to the story.

If you are thinking about forwarding this message, you are probably thinking about which people on your address list aren't the 'appropriate' ones to receive this type of message. The person who sent this to you believes that we can all make a difference. So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we act with compassion or do we pass up that opportunity and leave the world a bit colder in the process?

SUNDAY...

Miss You, by Blink 182



(I miss you, miss you)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the moor,
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(miss you, miss you)





Actually, pics i took yesterday...
went to the "beach" thing near queensbay yesterday. Bayan Mutiara.
if anyone knows where is it...

ooo... nice sea...
nice beach....

too bad, its polluted.

today,

pics from my balcony...

nice huh? haha... well, unfortunately, it isnt really my balcony... its the balcony of the IJM head office, went there to have a look at the plan of their new project...
wish it was my balcony, nice view tbh.

THE LIGHT, WATERFRONT PENANG.

OOOO... amazing...

no more super SMS? fuck digi

Please note DiGi Prepaid™ I Like™ will no longer be offered from 15 July 2009. Super Long Life™ is still available for subscription at RM30 for 1 year active line. Customers from old plans need to upgrade to the new DiGi Prepaid plan prior to subscribing to Super Long Life™.

oh ya? fuck digi.
get a life...
come on...
freakin yelllow man, go fuck yourself


digi created this plan, to attract more customers, and when they realised they were running business on a lost, they decided to terminate this package and came out with a new plan.


Low, low, low rates after RM1!
Enjoy rates from as low as 36sen/minute for calls when you subscribe to the new DiGi Prepaid™! Get instant daily benefits when you SMS every day!

Just send RM1 worth of SMS to any domestic number (excluding International, Content Provider and Friends and Family™ numbers) to get these rates for the rest of the day:

12cents/min to all domestic calls
1cent/ sms to all digi number

You also get more Friends and Family™ now! Add up to 11 DiGi Friends and Family™ and 4 non-DiGi numbers for a total of 15 Friends and Family™ numbers.

Not only that, you can now enjoy unlimited Mobile Internet any day.
enjoy unlimited mobile internet for no more than RM5 a day.

oh ya? whatever...
fuck you.
get lost...

WE WANT SUPER SMS BACK.

for fucks sake, i need to save money, and u come out with this fuckin plan, which doesnt really help? i mean, not at ALL???


on the other hand, this thing had been buggin my girlfriend since yesterday, so will ya please get lost? and leave her alone? its sufferin you know... -.-

hell...
as i grow up, im starting to think of nonsense... stuff that probably might never happen. i wonder why.
as i grow up, im starting to feel my brain deteriorating... signs of getting older day by day... i wonder why.
as i grow up, im feeling the world has changed even more... earth dying, people suffering, financial crisis, inflation. i wonder why.
as i grow up, there more stuff i need day by day... which i cannot get. saxophone as an example. i wonder why.

anyway, heard that the band is dying. again. all the best to them... its not the end yet.
CHCHSMB~ one band, one dream.

this is life of mine is getting weirder. O.O

all started with this song...

Whenever I'm weary
From the Beatles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
That heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
And if I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever I will be your man
Now and forever I will be your man




went to school...
had a BM seminar which i learnt nothing from it...
continued class...

went home...
stoned...

dinner...
stoned...

and stoned again...

and stoning now...

>.<

hmm?

not gonna detail every single thing i do anymore...
felt its kinda meaningless ranting here...
from the lyrics of "Man In The Mirror"
if you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and make the change...

so...
haha...
i'll just blog bout interesting stuffs...






after this, just realised im a real bad sax player =S
perhaps, music just isnt in me...
hmmm?

today, thought my teacher how to solve the rubik's cube in class during recess. so didnt went for recess.haha. hilarious huh? no comments...

nothing much happened...
as i said...
no use complaining...
nothing will change unless u give the actions...









damn cute huh?
haha...
guess who she is?
=P

不知不觉

不知不觉中开始了...
她,虽然在别人眼里不是100分
可是在我心里
她就是我的满分.

not good at all...

woke up today,

damn tired....

slept at bout 1am last night?

haha...



went to school...

with absolutely nothing in my mind...

had assembly today...

cut all my finger nails...

its all short now...



after that...

went back to class...

quite pissed...

heads drowzy...

seriously needing some sleep...

and so lessons went on...

recess, didnt buy noodles...

pissed...

hate to waste my time...

doing stuff that i don't really like...

including managing problems by people during que...

fuck them.

one more time and i'd skin them alive...



went back to class...

with all the noise around...

i just dont feel like talking anymore...

dun ask why...

but yea...

the whole class was literally high...

i'd just have to blend in...



worse still, had to go for tuition after school...

not really in the mood for studying...

get studying out of my life...

i suck in them...

in fact, i suck in everything...



went back home...

and, things didnt go that well after all...

still wondering why did i do that...

even if i know im not suppose to...

especially when the mood wasnt good...


这个世界原来是那么的现实
从以前到现在..
我连自己存在的意义也不懂
不管做得再多再好
没有人会看见,也没有人会了解
原来擅于利用人际关系才是最实际
我 什么都不是.



am i really just built to destroy?

didnt i do enough, enough to help?

i really dont understand...

neither you, nor myself...

im such a failure....

in everything...

in everyways...

what was that for?

what was i thinking?



sometimes, i wonder, is it worth it?

but i'd just hold myself back, thinking everything will be fine...

i'd just hope you'll be happy...

dont ya understand?

but, what did i do?

im just not good at explainations, at elaborations...

i think i'd probably keep this to myself...

now, im left drifting again...

on the path, that i was meant to be at...





Carrots, Eggs, & Coffee!
A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee....You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil.. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, ' Tell me what you see.''Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied.Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, 'What does it mean, mother?'Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting... However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying..You might want to send this message to those people who mean something to you (I JUST DID); to those who have touched your life in one way or another; to those who make you smile when you really need it; to those who make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down; to those whose friendship you appreciate; to those who are so meaningful in your life.If you don't send it, you will just miss out on the opportunity to brighten someone's day with this message!May we all be COFFEE!!!!!!!






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moody =S

woke up...
like... ultra stonned...
until i dun even know what i replied the message i saw this morning...
haha...
i think it was a blank text...
but until i checked my sent items later that afternoon, i realised i replied something totally unrelated, and a blank text... -.-
gf...

reached school...
wanted to sleep...
the minute i put my head on the desk,
Mr. Yeoh came in...
-.-
congratz 5s3, u gotta freakin swap classes with F6...
apparently, theres this dude in lower form 6 got injured...
probably from an accident...
so, it'll...
...
...
...
lazy to tell...
not important...
haha...
main points...
we had to shift our class to the higest floor...
means... i get to sleep less as i need to climb 4 stories everyday...
which freakin sucks?
...
kay...
so...
went to that class...
which is kinda cool...
haha... all the tables were joint together...
so... the whole class were practically stuck together...
haha...
so, class started...
chemistry....
then, whooo...
auditorium!!!
seminar for chinese...
oh no...
-.-
but fortunately, or should i say unfortunately,
i had to go to the hall to take the UNSW english assesment...
hell, 60 objective questions, like 5 passages, and 1 hour...
so, obviously, i didnt have enough time to complete...
just simply try my luck...
Zzz..
and the words they used are like...
what the fuck.
-.-
so, i just realised...
my english just isnt as good as i expected...
the results i got for my exams, were just messin with my head...
read my friends blog...
chatted with my friends...
i can feel their english is way more powerful than mine...
perhaps i just shouldnt show off my english, or whatever?
if the malaysian english standard is like this...
i'd probably fail too...
so please, my english is no good...
since my english is my best subject...
and its no good...
imagine others...
i suck...
totally...
=S

recess...
hell...
as i was que-ing, some freakin assholes cut-ted my line...
and there was a bastard standing behind me, literally rubbing his dick on me
-.-
pissed...
but, yea... i have good EQ... so =S
or rather i just dun feel like saying anything anymore...
i have the right to remain silent right?

then class continued as usual...
nothing really extraordinary happened...
boring...

went back...
took a nap....
wake up...
....
....
.............
......................

little confused...
but everything will be fine...
i guess...
not really into the mood today...
wonder why......


PS: anyone have any nice soft, smooth songs to recommend me?
ying~~~~~ got ma? chinese de also nvm.....

title? yea? title...

today...
woke up bout 10+
by a msg...
although quite pissed...
but...
once the name poped on the screen...
it freakin lighten up my morning...
haha...
just... dont know why...

den... watched this sitcom, FRIENDS.
damn funny...
but sorta giving a bad influence also...
feels its kinda giving people the wrong thinking...
thus creating more chaos...
haha...
but its damn funny tho...

went for lunch later...
after lunch, stayed home alone again...
so boring...
wanted to study...
but... once i look at the pile of books,
its just a N in my left eye, and O in my right eye...
so... yea...
stoned...
again...
called her later that afternoon...
used my almost all my credit that i just top-upped yesterday...
ouch... again...
OH NO...
well, quite worth it tho...
now, i think i understand her more...
maybe she isnt the girl she looks...
hmmm...

went for dinner at sakae, and bought some groceries...
came back home...
ouuhhh...
tmr got school...
not again?
1 word, 4 letters...
F
U
C
K
>.<

well, im just waiting to get shot by arrows tmr...
maybe bullets...
probably AK47s and M16s...
and...
there goes all the explaination again...
u know i hate to explain...
its hard to explain...
=S

and, they finally talked?
-.-
zzz... is it good?
...
well...
i dont really care anymore...

life's unfair...
its miserable...
life's wonderful...
its great...

did i... again?

haha... funny but i didnt blog yesterday...
maybe cuz got quite moody after she read my blog...
yea...
whatever...
lets not bother bout that...

so... i wonder what happened yesterday?
i think i forgotten again...

getting older...
damn...?
yea whatever...
i just know that had lessons the whole morning...
went back home...
stonned....
down-ed...
i think thats all?

today...
went to school for school singing competition's finals...
hehe...
quite a nice day indeed...
=P
had to fetch her back...
she had no transport...
but i made her wait as i stayed back to watch my band...
ouch?
haha...

nothing much to do today...
=S

getting lazier to blog...
nothing special is happening...
but i sorta wanna get my blog up to date...
so...
yea...
just talk bout rubbish...

something bout band,
realised they're sorta dropping...
can't imagine what will it become later on...
hmmm...

something i gotta say...
me and her is nothing one kay?????
i just had to fetch her back cuz she no transport~~~
so dun ask if we are couple d or not!

IM SUCH A LIAR... HAHAHAHA

hmm... life isnt that bad after all...

yesterday... too tired at night to blog...
sorta fell asleep on the coach and couldnt move...
but tried to stay awake because of her...
hmmm...

sudddenly...
just felt that im sorta starting to have my life back?
i don't know...
hope everything goes as normal...

hmm... life yesterday...
wednesdays...
the DRUNK day...
haha...
kept talking rubbish in class...
i wonder why...
sorta got the DRUNK cells on wednesdays...
haha...
went home...
stoned...
and look what i saw in the carpark...




thats a freakin huge moth...
its like 10cm from wing to wing???
or maybe even more!
whoa...

then, later, had dinner alone...
went home and stoned...
err...


today...
went to school....
sorta boring start...
but, i went to take a national chemistry quiz...
wish me luck...
hope i can score?
distinction?
or something???
hmm...
so... went to recess like 1 hour earlier...
which was how fun...
finally, dont need to go squeeze with other people...
nice and easy...
but didnt get to see her...
took the test from approx 10am-11.20am...
went back to class for 2 lessons of boring BC...
which we named it computer lesson...
cuz we'll be online at "dream.com"
haha..
yea..
i know its lame...

after school... finally get to meet her?
talked a while...
then went back...
like...
fell asleep on the sofa again...
haha...
slept from bout 3+ to almost 7?
i know its freakin long...
haha...

later, on for dinner...
then to relatives house until about 10pm...
came back home...
and realised i had this past year BM question that i have to complete and hand in tmr...
i didnt touch anything...
not going to also...
couldnt be bothered...
its like... freakin crazy...
needs approx 5 hours to complete both paper 1 & 2...
sighs...
wish me luck...


LUCK IN EVERYTHING...

boring indeed...

i somehow, suddenly poped outa sleep at bout 5.30?
it was still early, so i went back to bed... haha...


woke up later...
went to school...
apparently, i just realised i had PJ class today, and my PJ shirt was with my friend...
luckily i texted him last night...
fortunately, he remembered to bring to me today...
so... i suddenly felt the mood to play sax...
so, took my reed,
and went to the music room...
and sorta jammed a little...
and jazzed a little...
wow...
felt my sound was pretty nice indeed...
haha...
gonna do the same again tmr...
if i can reach school a little earlier...

lesson started with of course PJ...
embarrased lesson...
had to do ROLLS for PJ test...
and i kinda sucked...
-.-
yea, whatever...
class continues...
life goes on...
tired...
sleepppyyy...
dreaming...
not concentrate...
and now i realise i sorta dunno loads of stuff...
couldnt imagine how i would suffer during studies...
haha...

had tuition later...
pretty stoned...
all i could think is to sleep...
i even lost my appetite and skipped lunch lol.

later, went home, took a freakin nap...
for gods sake, really needed that...
at least i felt little refreshed...
although im still tired now...

had dinner...
came back...
watched some tv...
and... yea... stonned...

song i would like to share...
i think i posted this before... but i'd still like to post this...
its freakin nice...

So Close, by Jon Mclaughlin


You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far