rough start for a day...

rather boring day...
blogged this to keep it alive?

damn...
couldnt wake up this morning...
forgot to set my alarm last night...

well.. fortunately, im still not late...
reach school bout 15mins later than usual?
well... so didnt had the chance to go sleep on my wonderful desk as class was about to start soon...
a little stoned...
stared at the air for a moment...

snaping up when teacher came into class...
boring day...
luckily still had a free period before recess cuz the teacher went on maternity leave...
actually already started like a week ago...
but i seriously think it should be a few months ago..
god... u should see her stomach...
it was like... THIS BIG... seems so vulnarable...
as if it would just explode with a touch of a finger...
i mean like...
doink... BOMB... -.-

after recess, they had a seminar on anti-drug stuff...
thought i would have another chance to skip lessons again...
too bad, it was only for form 1, 2 and 4s...
well... still enjoyed staying in class tho...
cuz they were blasting music and the speakers was like... THIS LOUD
so... most of the teachers couldnt really teach...

real boring day...
ummm? everyday is...

bought lunch back home...
ate...
watched some tv...
napped...
wake up...
dinner...
tv...
boring......

lifes so boring...
damn...
anything better i can do?

oh.. something...
im sorta hooked to MJ's song these days...

people won't be appreciated until its too late...
i totally agree with that...

hmmm....

Sunday... i hate sundays...

why i hate sundays?
don't know...
just hate them...
maybe cuz i have to go to school the next day?
oh well... just realised something...
i didnt cut my hair...
and it'll be the 1st of july this wednesday...
and that means...
yea... whatever...
its freakin 11pm...
means i have less than 8 hours left till i have to go to school...
again...

woke up bout 9+ this morning...
cuz it rained sorta heavy...
and i just woked up...
cuz i dreamnt of something...
it was rather an odd dream...
well... not gonna say anything bout it...
i know, u know, god know...
thats all..

slept again, and woke up later at approx 12noon..
went for lunch with my mum...
came back...
and watched badminton...
this time... The finals..
it was rather lame...

and stoned in front of the pc the whole afternoon...
Zzzz...

went for dinner later that afternoon...
during the drive home...
something lame happened...

it was at a traffic light...
it was red, and we were the first on the que...
then my mum decided to just go cuz there was no cars ahead...
as in, break the red light?
after the turn...
bingo...
we saw blue flashing lights following us...
police...
-.-
the police man by the car window...
i thought we're gonna get a ticket...
well... fortunately, we didnt...
the policeman said,
do u know it was a red light?
my mum said, no... didnt see it... gf mum...
then he asked, where were we going,
my mum said, "balik kampung"
yea... another gf mum...
then he asked where did we live...
my mum pointed in front,
and said, "sana" means there in malay...
whoa... another 10points for that...
-.-
my mum is such a smart ass...
LOL.. no offence...
but we didnt get any summon... or whatever...
he just gave us a warning...
haha... LOL
cuz it was just a police on patrol..
err.. gf mum... gf...

after i reached home... watched a movie...




nice show... i'd recomend u guys to watch... hehe

so... thats it for today...
i guess...

boring...

its like the middle of the night...
and i can't sleep...
probably not going to, until... later...
wishing someone is able to be by my side now...
damn... but that aint gonna happen...

Heal The World by Michael Jackson

There's a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow

There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space
Make a better place

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

If you want to know why
There's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares of joyful giving
If we try we shall see
In this bliss we cannot feel, fear or dread
We stop existing and start living

Then it feels that always
Love's enough for us growing
Make a better world
Make a better world

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

And the dream we were conceived in
Will reveal a joyful face
And the world we once believed in
Will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep strangling life
Wound this earth, crucify its soul
Though it's plain to see
This world is heavenly
Be God's glow

We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart
I feel you are all my brothers
Create a world with no fear
Together we'll cry happy tears
See the nations
Turn their swords into plowshares

We could really get there
If you cared enough for the living
Make a little space
To make a better place

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

Heal the world
Make it a better place
(Oh, my friends)
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

You and for me
You and for me

Heal the world we live in
Save it for our children



You Are Not Alone by Michael Jackson

Another day has gone
Im still all alone
How could this be
Youre not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though youre far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though were far apart
Youre always in my heart
But you are not alone

lone, lone
Why, lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though youre far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though were far apart
Youre always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and Ill come runnin
And girl you know that Ill be there
Ill be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though youre far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though were far apart
Youre always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though youre far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though were far apart
Youre always in my heart

For you are not alone...






HELLO...
SOMEONE...
ANYONE...

a saturday to talk about..

saturday, but still have to go to school...
well.. its teachers day!

early in the mornin, the class beside mine was already blasting music...
and our class, everyone was just lookin at each other...
stoning... haha...

after the sunrise, and people start to wake up...
brought the food... and start to warm up a little...

after eating, me and my friends, went to walk around the school,
and look at other classes...

before that, managed to take a few pics with my phone... haha

foods from my class...

my class... just simply take one...

ooh.. my school hall...
the stage is repainted... my band's concert...
damn... whats wrong with the school....
if they were to do it before the concert.......................

well.. whatever...
just realised something...
i freakin love my phone,
the camera is damn good... haha...
look at the photos... so clear... so nice...
err... haha
well, too bad i couldnt take many pics, cuz im not supposed to bring the phone to school...
ouch...

we like, walked around the whole school...
then some other classed, formed a riot team or whatever is it...
and like run around the whole school? for fun?
aiya... whatever, i think its quite lame...
and weird...
why bother running around?
if anyone even cares bout that?

den, as we were walking passed this class...
something caused me and my friends eye...
a couple, they were sitting in a corner of the class...
like.. kissing?
the girl was sitting on the guys lap...
and the girl was like "dun wan la" that type...
but the guy was like forcing himself on her?
or whatever?
damn, i can sue him... -.-
or maybe they like is THAT way?
then, suddenly they stopped...
haha...
cuz we were staring at them...
LOL.
GOTCHA~
...
i mean like, are u guys nuts?
or just trying to show off to the world that u both are SO MADLY IN LOVE?
kissing? still nevermind...
IN SCHOOL??? ERRR??
whats wrong with u guys...
get a life, man...
Zzzz...
well, they probably have no life...
i can tell from the class they are in, and their looks...
FFS... GET YOUR BRAIN MOVING~

then... we continued the voyage?
around the whole school...
looking at classes, with their party...
running around... errr...

then, we skipped the cleaning of the class part,
and went to the music room to get ready for our band performance in celebration of the teachers day...

went to hall...
bla bla bla...
VIP's gave speeches...
had some singing...
by students, and also TEACHERS! LMAO...
i shall not say much... just imagine it...
they also had some dancing...
this girl caught my eye, SHE HAD BIG BOOBS...
and she was shaking them on stage... -.-
well, not exactly shaking... but... its the dance...
she's kinda cute also...
actually i know her... haha...
she's quite a bitch anyway...
so...
whatever...

HERE... I WOULD LIKE TO START MY RANT OF THE DAY...
FUCK THE SCHOOL... I FREAKIN HATE THE SCHOOL...
so... here it goes...
we were suppose to be the last on the list to perform...
after all the events and stuff...
it was almost time to go home...
so... they freakin cut us away...
without even informing...
they just ignored us...
and asked all the teachers to leave, and students to go home...
damn, whats wrong with all the weird people...
and... the worst part is...
the conductor of the band wanted to continue...
so... she just continued the whole thing...
we were playing the songs like dummies...
why everyone leave the hall...
WTF?
we're not suppose to be the closing ceremony!!!!
i already told her to stop, but she didnt wanna listen...
since they asked everyone to leave, we should freakin leave also!!!!!!
its not like we NEED that performance...
its like...
doing something to someone, and u know that person wouldn't even give a damn...
why???
-.-
its so lame!!!!!!
damn i hate it...
just leave!!!
aiya... whatever la... the past is the past...
regret helping them to perform...
all the F5's are suppose to attend this seminar for answering techniques in SPM...
and to make things worse... its BAHASA MALAYSIA...
so... great...
Zzzz...
still pissed about it...
why did they continue???
making us look like fools...
kan leh ma chao chee byee...

they are going to perform again later this afternoon for the afternoon session...
but i didnt stay back...

went back... had lunch...
then watched badminton...
Malaysia Open Grand Prix Gold 2009, semi finals...
all the stronger players around the world didnt participate...
so... quite lame...
watched till i fell asleep...

woke up later that evening, and went for dinner...
went to queensbay after dinner...
saw them promoting transfomers...
they even sold the transformers toys... damn ugly...
i like the real thing more...
wonder if...
one day, decepticons were to invade earth...
and autobots would fight to save the earth...
haha...
while walking around...
i saw this girl... she was a promoter selling phones...
she's damn pretty... haha...
but, i already forget her face... hahaha...
something, i think im getting perverted...
i keep looking at pretty girls...
how?
i want a girlfriend... awww...
but nobody wants me...
hahahaha...
look at my face =[
haha...

then... i watched the old concert of the King of Pop, Michael Jackson on tv...
haha... he's quite cool...
but i still cant figure out why the fans are crying while he's performing...
they were like screaming and shouting like hell...
some even fainted... and needed to be carried away by paramedics...
errr? >.<
i know he's good...
he's unique...
nobody can follow him...
but, why are they crying?
i mean... u should be happy...
err... whatever....
some of his songs are really nice...
hehe... go check them out...

after watching it... im here now...
bored...
anyone wanna be my girlfriend?
haha...

thats why i said this world is unfair...

went to school...
haha... my friend talked bout transformers the whole day...
like since he reached school, 7am until 10am?
well, of course i joined in some also...
haha...

then after recess, continued class...
den heard from my teacher that michael jackson died...
well, he wasnt confirm cuz he just got the news from sms...

after school, went back home to take a bath,
then went back to school for band prac...
hehe... they asked us to go back to help them perform for the teachers day celebration tmr...
quite fun practicing with the band again...
still miss my sax... hehe

after practice, went back home...
only confirmed that Michael Jackson passed away...
apparently from a cardiac arrest...
Farrah Fawcett, like ex charlie's angle passed away too...
why is people dying today?
whats with today? err...

cant really recall much of what happened today...
lazy to go blog bout it too...
now, like all the radio stations, and tv channels are having a tribute to MJ...
i also wanna have one!!!

TRANSFORMERS 2 : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

today, woke up kinda early for a non-schooling day...
i think i didn't close the curtains properly or something, just somehow felt the heat and glare soaring towards me... so... suddenly just, boom! woke up...

had nothing to do, skipped the cross country thing today...
so watch movies, managed to finish the last episode of a japanese movie L.I.V.E
its about students and their band life...and... ... ...

then finally, my mum's back...
had lunch...
and off to queensbay...
watched...
TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN~~~~
damn i dunno why im so obsessed with this show...
but i think its damn cool!!!
and by the way...
megan fox is damn hawt~~~
whoo... haha
if i had a girlfriend like her... errr...

haha... sam and makaela in the movie...
she, the hottest girl in the movie...
=]



coolest guy in the movie? Josh Duhamel...




coolest combined transfomers, OPTIMUS PRIME & JETFIRE
damn he's cool...
too bad i couldn't get a nicer picture...

i think all the transformers are cool...

leader of the decepticons, Megatron.


well, altho some are ugly...
like bumblebee...



he has an ugly face... altho he's still cool...
but i think he should always put his facemask thing on...
he looks better in it...



apparently, its called bumblebee in "battle mode"
but now, he really looks like a bee... -.-
aiya... i think he was initially design to be a bee transformer...
but somehow, they turn him into a sweet Chevrolet Camaro... -.-



whatever.......
















this show is still cool...
everybody should watch!!!!

after the show, went for dinner... then came back home... and stone till now... midnight... and im starting to think bout some rubbish again... ouch...
it always hurts....
I THINK IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH TSU HUEY...
HOW COULD THIS BE HAPPENING?
haha... ouch?

startin to love wednesday...

woke up as usual...
had a sore gum...
damn...
i think i brushed my gum with the toothbrush in 1 of the past mornings...
dint realise anything... until it starts to hurt...

went to school...
had assembly...
as usual, HE's still asking lots of question...
had to explain a few times for him to understand the situation...
-.-

den like... 3 teachers din come today?
so... it was sorta a relax day...
less studying...
actually everyday is relaxing... -.-
err...
starting to like wednesday more? errr....

after school, it started to rain...
damn heavy...
and here shows the lousy drainage system of penang...
it just rained like 30mins?
and you already can see floods up to 3 inches high... -.-
altho 3inch is nothing... but 3 inch in 30mins is something...
lousy...

reached home, watched some tv...
took a nap...
again... haha
went to dinner...
and when i came back.. guess what i saw?

DAMN!!! seen anything unusual????
look again...
again...
see closely...
if u focus on the ceiling in the middle of the photo,
u can see some bird like thing...
u must be thinking, yea? whats up? its just a bird...
but...
NOOOO
LOOOK BELOW...

its a FREAKIN CHICKEN man... CHICKEN!!!!
IMAGINE IT... -.-
it only flys there like, certain time of the day... cuz i saw it few days ago...
and it dissapeared... thought it somebody already had it for dinner...
=S
imagine a chicken, on the 4th floor ceiling of the carpark... -.-
and it shitted all over...
so the car parkin below it have to move away...
but i saw a piece of cardboard by the side, covered with POO...
i guess, the owner probably used it to cover his or her car...
DAMN... still wondering how to chicken got so high...
and... HOW DID IT GET HERE AT THE FIRST PLACE???
A FREAKIN CHICKEN~~~~

well... nothing much happened...
oh! im skipping the marathon thing tmr... haha
CAN'T WAIT TO WATCH TRANSFORMERS 2...



TSU HUEY THE BEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.
^^
well... she's not readin this by the way... haha
just wrote it for fun...
no other thoughts...

ummm...

damn... these few days... so blur...
after getting into the car to go to school, i'll be sleeping in the car...
then, the next thing, i'll be rushing to class to sleep... -.-
blur these few days... >.<

nothing special happened today in school... annoyed by the guy... and i know i talked alot... thats all...
but i forgot what i wanted to say here...

after school, had chemistry tuition... damn, everytime during the tuition, i'll be dreaming... almost falling asleep in the first 30mins or so...
im getting old... feeling that my brain is slowly deteriorating...
results getting worse and worse...
-.-

BC 52 (passed again)
BM 55
BI 89
BIO 39 -.-
PHY 60
CHEM 60
MATHS 61 i think
A.MATHS 32 -.-
HIST 14 for fucks sake!
MORAL 55
CIVICS 65

terrible -.-

well, i din nap today, cuz i know that i wont be able to sleep if i nap... so i watched the repeat of the Indonesia Open badmintion semi finals...
LEE YONG DAE is still cool... haha



after dinner, came back home..
nothing to blog about... boring...
Zzzz

what should i say?

today woke up... very stone...
went to school... like, the only thing i was thinking was to go to my desk and sleep...
and so i did...

then my friend, freakin hell, woke me up...
i almost got the shock of my life...
i can't describe the thing
he shake me and scream my name beside my ear?
damn...
cuz someone outside the class was looking for me...

here, i wanna rant some stuff bout him..
he is a guy...
he sits behind me in class...
he talks damn loud, and always seeks for attention in such ways like doing weird actions...
and he finds it entertaining when people laugh at him...
you know that kind...
he keeps following me, like, my way of talk, my attitude, and when he does something, he'll say that i thought him that... how annoying... i didnt exactly taught him anything...
i mean, its just my style... why do he have to copy...
in my way of thinking, not to show off or what,
he does it to get more attention, cuz like, im more popular than him??
i mean... aiya, if dun understand then nvm...
continue, he's damn annoying like, when he saying something...
he'll say, "hey, i saw a video on youtube(well, he's crazy bout youtube), U KNOW WHAT HE DID?"
i mean like, god knows what he did? i din even watch the video... can't he just tell me?
but he'll keep saying, u know or not?? u know or not??? UNTIL I ANSWER, "DUNNO, WHAT?"
then only he'll say...
im not sure if he noticed it... but whatever... annoyed...
and u know, he doesnt pay attention in class, or when im talking with other friends...
like... in class...
when teachers talking, he'll do some weird stuff, like cutting his nails in class, when its making a loud clicking sound and he doesnt care...
then when teacher say something funny and the class laughs,
he'll hit my on shoulder, and ask what happened...
i said HIT... not pat...
what?? can't u just pay attention?
and this doesnt happen once, but twice, 3 times... IN A DAY... damn annoying,...
i mean, if u missed it, then forget about it...
to make things worse... he doesnt understand what i say, so i have to repeat it 2 or 3 times, and elaborate them, until he understands, or he'll keep asking... annoying...
then, when im talking to my other friends, or what, he'll do i dunno what... and like have us to repeat everything after we're finished...
and he says we dont talk to him...
damn it, you're not listening k?
can't u just sit there and listen, 3 people can't converse together, it has to be only 1 people talking at a time right?
Zzzz...
and... cuz im sitting in front of him right, so when he WANTS TO freakin talk to me, he'll hit either my chair, or what, until i respond... and i have to turn my whole body to face him or he'll keep hitting me...
i mean, u can just talk, im listening... and sometimes i just turn my head back abit, its ok right?
and he'll keep talking to me, altho im sitting in front... but not the person beside him...
why?
and he'll like, saving lots of money?
he can do anything to save that few cents...
like, he even uses a pen from my friend everyday...
he only use his during exam...
why?
i mean... why??? are u really that poor?
in other things, maybe i cant blame him, some people really cant afford stuff...
but a pen??? and its not like he can't buy one, he has one during exam...
why only can he use it during exam?
is there like a rule??
and he's quite inconsiderate...
example, he asks me to go back early from band practice cuz he wants me to fetch him back..
what the hell... luckily that didnt happen, maybe it might happen this week... =S
and, he asks the ex-president of band to go to school earlier just to unlock the music room cuz he wants to play the piano which is inside... and also cuz he'll go earlier of some transport problem... and he expects everyone to go earlier too?
i was quite pissed... like, we're all in the band... me, him, ex-president, the guy beside me, and the guy beside him... so... off topic... back to it...
i remembered that day, president, this girl which is my friend and i mentioned her before in my earlier posts...
she had to go to butterworth for some test in the morning, then came back and had tuition in the afternoon, and had to go school hours before practice starts cuz she needs to unlock the door...
damn, she told him she cant make it d...
then he's like,
can't meh?
why?
really can't?
why?
try la?
just try?
why?
that type... which is... arrrgh... annoying?
he does that to me also... -.-
do we like have to explain EVERYTHING to u, until u can understand?
why not think it by yourself?

Zzzz... i think thats all i gotta rant...
well, he can be nice too sometimes...
he's still our friend... just he's annoying...
i don't blame him...
its his character?
who knows? maybe some other people thinks the same way bout me too??

as i say, this is my blog... i say whatever i want...

hmm... before the bell rang... there was an announcement asking all form5 band members to go to the music room for a brief meeting...
they asked us to perform for the teachers day celebration this saturday...
then there comes this sound,
HEY, I THOUGHT THE CONCERT WAS OUR LAST PERFORMANCE, HOW CAN U DO THAT?
why not? its just helping, u can choose not to also right?
then the present president of band, which is 1 year my junior was sorta dissapointed...
then he said, those who doesnt wanna perform can leave and go back to class now...
and nobody left -.-
talking bout that girl who said those stuff...
one of the person i hate the most in band...
she's the discipline mistress...
blahh... lazy to talk bout her...
she's a show off, and thinkings that she's always right and uses all those chinese proverbs and bla bla bla to give excuses... and blame problems on other people... damn... lets not continue bout this...

then class was just normal...
the guy sitting beside me was absent today, called in sick...
so, yea... stone again in class...

stayed back for meeting with the new committee...
zzzz... the present vice president told me i MUST attend the meeting...
but didnt turn out that way...
so, like, halfway through the meeting, i went to play my saxophone outside... haha
fun...
saxophone is always fun...

still hope the band can maintain the standard and stuff tho...
well, just now's meeting was rather lame, i shall not comment...

reached back home bout half past five...
took my bath and napped after that...
had dinner... came back... and here i am...
blogging again...

damn i love tsu huey... haha
she's cute...
she's funny...
i feel that i can talk to her...
like... we click... haha

Sunday... Sun Day...

yay... sunday~
err... now whoot... =S

woke up bout 11+... stone as usual...
den went out for lunch...
came back...
home alone again...
watched some tv...

den started to do my addmaths project work...
im suppose to pass up last friday...
but i just photocopied the thing from my friend on friday... haha
i didnt even know how to start cuz the didnt say anything -.-
funny thing is... the whole class photocopied the same thing and pass up also...
so, i decided to bring it back, and do some reediting...
one of the parts... we're suppose to find 5 pictures related to circle...

these are my 5...

A Ring

A button

A coin

A Enzo Ferrari Sports car, for the wheels... -.-

And a Transformers CD... hahahaha...

well... im starting to think im crazy...
i've nothing better to do...

Anyway... after a while... i went to watch a little badminton...
WHOOO
CHONG WEI WON FFS!!!
LEE YONG DAE AND JUNG JAE SUNG WON TOO~~~ DAMN...

their freakin cool u know... HAHAHA ESPECIALLY LEE YONG DAE...
although he's a korean, but he's still cool...

after that, went to have my dinner...
neway... after dinner....
went back home, and continue the project thing...
but do until halfway, i just decided to combine mine with the one i photocopied from my friend...
SO... the end of the fuckin project thing...
WEEEE...

well... lets see whats hot today...
OH YA... finally somebody asked for permission to enter my blog... which is YOU..
the only person that is reading this...

well... sorta happy... hahaha...

just hope nobody go and spread stuff i write at my blog out to THE WORLD...

many things running through my head... but... i just dun feel like talking... or saying anything... just let it be history..................
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.
.
.
.

DO I STILL LOVE HER?
WHY DO I HATE HER SO MUCH NOW??
I CANT SEEM TO STAND HER...
LOOKING AT HER, JUST MAKES ME MOODY, I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING HER...
WHY IS SHE DOING THIS TO ME?
FUCK HER.

part 2 of saturday

after the previous post... i watched a movie on DVD

12 Rounds

nice one... recomended to watch too!!!

haha... my mum came back about 6.30
and we went out for dinner...

after that, we went to queensbay so walk walk for a while...
wanted to watch a movie... but its only starting at 9++...
which means we will have to wait if wanna watch...
so... decided not to watch...
but at the end, we still bough tickets... for...



whoaaa...

TRANSFORMERS 2:
REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

damn... it looks so cool... cant wait to watch it...
hope its good...
anyway... im skipping the marathon cross country thinggie next thursday..
just felt its lame... and no point going for it..

after that, went home... then stoned for a while...
during so... i chatted with a band member... one of my juniors in the band...
he keeps asking me how to bring up the band...
how to teach the juniors to keep up the standard...
he looks quite down... i think the whole band feels down after we left...
some even said it was as if they lost their souls... the spirit just wasnt there anymore...

all i wanna say is... GET USE TO IT...
LIVE GOES ON... so... yea... you guys will over come it soon... dun worry...
think positive... its not the end of the world...
yea... i know CHCHSMB can make it... =]
hope you guyz can archieve greater accomplishments!

then, talked to one of my friends... like... we rarely talk in school, cuz we are in different class, and she's always kinda busy with her studies and so...
amazingly, we somehow talked about her crush, and she started telling me stories bout that...
and so did i... actually she just went to bed before i blogged...
quite happy actually, cuz we had some misunderstanding or stuff like that few weeks ago, and didnt really talk since then...
msg to her: DON'T BE SO STRESSED UP!

quite sad after the story telling... i missed those moments...
but at the sametime, i hate them...
why is this happening...
why is she like that...
Zzzz...
well, i believe every good things comes to an end... and
in every good, there is always a bad...
this world is unfair...
its the reality...
GET USE TO IT!

recently, i've not been quiet good guy... geez...
1st, i keep hurting people, sorta got into an arguement or some thing similar this afternoon, i don't know what am i doing? Zzzz...
2nd, i keep spy on people's blogs...
haha... just read 1 one my friends blog again...
my so called sister...

well, i went back all the way, where her first post was...
it was about how she met her boyfriend... and the whole story thing...
during that period, i didnt really talk to her cuz i know boys get jealous and stuff...
but she didnt really bothered me too... so... its fine...

then somehow, they broke up... and she came to me...
saying sorry to me...
i still remember her asking me to lend her my shoulders...
and so i did...
we got along quite well...
at least i thought so...

but in her blog, i don't think she showed any signs of appreciation...
SHE ONLY MENTIONED MY NAME ONCE IN HER WHOLE BLOG...
err... and once more as brother...
I think thats all...
sad...
during her breakup with her boyfriend...
I tried to help her...
but she didnt even thank me?
or even mentioned that im her so called brother...
or whatver it is...
but i thought she really appreciated me...
she sms-ed me quite alot...
cared bout me too...
at least i thought so...
but... mention nothing in her blog?
am i too sensitive?
im not seeking for attention, or any return in the stuff i do..
but... is that it?
or
is it that she's so hurt, that the only thing she thinks of is that guy...
or... im just nothing to her...

sometimes i just wonder... if anyone appreciates me as a friend...
oh... something... its officially known that my blog is safe from outsiders...
and nobody is reading all this...
cuz i set my blog to private, and nobody requested permission to enter...
hahaha... yay...
is it good or bad? =S
means nobody will understand me...

IM STILL PATHETIC...
BUT IM NOT SEEKING FOR ATTENTION~

and i seriously need a new pc.. or a new ISP?
or whatever...
its lagging too much...
DAMN...


a nice song... i would recomend u guyz to listen...
although its an old song...
So close, from the movie Enchanted, By Jon Mclaughin.

You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two
So close togehter
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close
So close to reaching
That famous happy end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...
Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close to reaching
That famous happy end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close
So close, and still
So far...

sometimes...

today... no school... no band... woke up at bout 11...
doesnt feel that right... im suppose to be in school..
having band practice...
but im not...

saw 2 msges...
all asking me to go school...
i can imagine how they feel without us...

after having lunch, my mum droped me back at home...
and she went for mahjong cuz her aunt call her...
she does that everyweek...
hey grand aunt,
can u think more rationally?
once in a while, ya... not everyweek man...

so now, im alone at home again...
well... watch some tv...
watched the japanese show, L.I.V.E
its about this school band's life...
with their friends... and problems they face... bla bla bla
but...
i cant seem to understand much..
cuz...
they're talking in japanese...
and... the subtitles are only in chinese...
well... i just simply make my own story from the stuff i assume happened...

out of bordem...
i went to see my friends blog which he advertised on his msn's personal msg...
http://dannis-him.blogspot.com
then... i some how saw a link to my another friends blog...
http://zaxchuah.blogspot.com/
well... he's the guy that sits beside me in class...
read it... and you'll know the story...
the girl she's talking about was my girlfriend... WAS...
i totally understand him...
well...
long story... lazy to explain...

don't know why...
or what happened...
im getting that feeling again...
IT SUCKS...

SXIMB CONCERT JOB WELL DONE =)

fridays... always a better day...

haha... yay! today's friday... last school day of the week...
which makes every student smile after school...
how fun...

well... had a weird dream this morning...
i dreamt about...
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it started that i was in the aeroplane...
and it was hijacked by this terrorist thing...
he was carrying a machine gun...
=S why was i on the plane? i don't know...
the next thing i know, the guy started shooting everything, and killing everyone, but me...
then he aimed the gun at me... and bang!...
serious k...
then there was a flashback... like in the movies...
apparently, i was just thinking what would happen if i din jump off the plane...
then, the next thing i knew... the plane landed... and i decided to jump of the plane...
i happen to be sitting beside the door of the plane,
ironically, the door of the plane, was similar to the door of a car...
u know, with the handle and all u gotta do is unlock the door, and pull the handle towards u and i'll just open...
this time, my mum was sitting beside me...
i unlocked the door, and so did my mum, and it made a click,
and the terrorist looked at us, pointing the gun at us... then we quickly open the door, and dived out of the plane...
the planed havent even stop, it was still on the runway...
once we jumped of the moving aeroplane... we runned like hell...
i remember looking back at the plane and i can see the terrorist aiming his automatic rifle at me...
and... tak tak tak tak tak tak...
he fired...
and i fell down...
then i woke up...

damn... weird dream... =S
not a story i made up k...
believe it or not, its up to u...

and i woke up later than usual...
and reached school later than usual...

stayed in class...
lessons going on... blehh...

ring... school's over... weeee

went back... stoned for a while... and here am i...

going for St. Xavier's Institution Marching Band's concert later...
weee... goodluck SXIMB~
hope they can have a good performance tonight...

安静...

woke up...
went to school...
gloomy... everything was dark...
at school... had fun during english lesson... at least something i can laugh at... or i'll probably be crying all day long...
during recess, when i was que-ing to buy my noodles,
this fuckin asshole squeezed in the 10cm gap between me and my friend...
first, he freakin stepped on my shoe, and kicked me on my shin...
damn... he's such an ass...

keong kan la! i said...
he looked at me, with the kam lan face...
u cannot wait?
and he replied, u din move...
fuck you man... whats the problem with you...
stared at him, and he said, "bo song, report me la"
what a lame guy...
wonder why there's still such people in school... so freakin uncivilised...
whats the problem with him man...
i swear to god, if he does that again, i'll freakin skin him alive, and shove his balls up his guts...
whoever you are, FUCK YOU!

i passed my chinese...
amazing...
i wrote 2 essays on 1 piece of paper... and i got 55 for that...
with no format, and words less than 300...
my friends wrote way more than me... they got only a few marks more than me, mines still worth it... haha... some even got less... =S

it it me? or them?
im not happy at all...
stumbled upon my friend's blog...
inside, wrote that...
will appreciate all friends although they don't understand me...
then she freakin get stress out, cuz she cant get the results she wants...
and her lymph nodes swell...
what's wrong with her?
is it that important to achieve success?
does failure means that you're useless?
oh well... maybe... no wonder im never useful...
...
...
...

life's deteriorating day by day...
getting suckier day by day...
sometimes i wonder if i should just go bang the wall and die of some blood clot in the brain...
or hopefully lose my memory...
i hate this...
everyone's busy with their own life...
i can't seem to trust anyone anymore...
all i see is the darkside of them...
what is wrong with me?
why am i always in darkness?
looking at life..
that is not worth for me to live...

it is really just me?
why?
can't u guys differentiate?
when im happy, when im not...
or when im just joking, and when im not...
or when i mean it, and when i don't...
sigh...
i know its my fault, it has always been...
once heard from somebody...
god made the worth to be perfect, its man that create all the nonsense...
same to me, god made me without all this rubbish, im the one, creating it, dumping them into myself...


some one please kill me... now...




只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你
只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你
你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

still wonderin... if

woke up as normal today, went to school, which i dun like, at all..
wonder why i hate school so much?

had a seminar bout addmaths my one of our own teacher, Mr. Kang...
who is some pro maths dude, which thinks everything in math...
i can imagine his life...

what is the time now?
its, (5square - square root of 9) hours...
ohhh.. 10pm... =S

blehhh...
whatever...
something, do u know that all u need is about 60% to score an A in SPM
so easy?
but wtf, my results now is half that...
how?
dun ask me how...

after the thing, went back to class..
got the results of 2 more papers today... still ok lohhh...

went back... took a nap...

and i before the nap, i some how saw a friend of mine which we knew since primary school came online... before this, we had loads to talk... but, it was all about this game we play together, now, he migrated to australia, and ever since i quit playing that game, i lost contact with him...
other than that, after quitting the game, i too lost many friends whom i usually talk to...
remembering those days, after school, i would get hook on my comp, playing this lame game... but at the same time, im talking to lots of friends, altho i dun even know how they look like in real, they might be come pedophile trying to scam the ass out of me or what, but at least i had somebody to talk to...
now... its kinda different, everyone seems so busy with their life...
i know im still pathetic...

every morning, i open my eyes... first thing i think is who am i going to meet today... when sometimes u feel that u can really share your thoughts with someone, some other thing will happen, and hopes would be crushed...

another thing, what will i do next time? after my SPM, continue study? how? where? my results not good enough, cant get scholarship. form 6? dang, then i have to look at the school again?
or not how? comments anyone? oh if forgot, nobody reads this...

oh ya... yay, today's CSI's 200th episode, haha... watched it just now... lol
and dun forget to play with my fish! at the bottom of the page... =P

Im BACk~~

whoa... what made me come back?
i dont know. and, dun ask why...

yea, just felt like blogging, altho nobody really cares?
but, there's no difference in talking IRL.




so, yea? just let me waste my time...









so, lets talk about what happened during this 6 months (since i last blogged)


finished form 4, now currently studying in form 5, class 5s3... go check other details in my previous posts. dun ask again... uuuhhh... whose gonna ask? cuz nobody's even reading my blog




=S


lets summaries the main points.







still in the band.
still love my saxophone.


nice right? but sadly, its not mine. haih... who wanna buy me one???

yea, class as normal... boring... DAMN I STILL HATE SCHOOL. DONT ASK WHY.


its just study study and study in class.


oh btw, my results this time, oh ffs, terrible =S no comments.



well, we won the champion in the sports day parade.
had a successful concert, june 13th, MUSIC RENDEZVOUS 2

and freakin hell, i finally get to solo, with my friend as the piano accompaniment.
played the song which is on the background on this blog. haha

something for me to remember before i graduate.

left the band already... so gonna miss everything.

what to do? life still goes on right? sigh...

wonder who understands me? who knows what im thinking? its always my fault... im the bad one right? yaa... i know... i always was... sometimes its kinda sad, knowing u can't really talk to a person, but the blog... yea, thats why i start blogging again...

as time goes by, u realise that people beside you, cant really be trusted...
example, a friend of yours talking bout bad things behind you

or

trying to get hooked onto your boat...

or...

many more...

as people says, looks can be decieving...



but what to do? as the description of my blog says, LIFE SUCKS, BUT IT STILL GOES ON.

friends, do whatever you want. as long as ALL OF YOU are happy, i'll be too...

just cant understand why people just cant differentiate what im saying...
or if the things i said, REALLY DID HURT U THATTTTTTTT MUCHHHHHHH???

sigh...

life's getting boring... getting suckier day by day....

just hoping for someone, anyone, which can understand me more?
i know im pathetic, but does anyone know i need people to care about me more? i need people who i can talk to, not people to let me pass my day... GET IT? dang...
im still pathetic...
still thinking if i have any true friends?
everything seems different after i broke up with her...
whats going on? i know i hate her... i dun like her at all... look at her, wonder why i loved her at first... =S
so please, anyone, or whoever it is, dun say that i still love her, cuz i dont... k?

i just need somebody to talk to, can i get one?
friends, come and go... wonder why is everything so hard??

bout band...
yea, i'll miss the band... whooo...
everything come and go... sian man...
i love my saxophone...
if possible, i wanna pursue a career in music...
get a cert in saxophone or whatever...
but, obviously, i cant, cuz nobody likes it, everybody's objecting...
blahhh...

why is life so hard?
=S its weird you know... when, u suddenly think, who can i go to when im down? who is still standing on my side? who can i trust???
no one?

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